A Vicious Cycle

The long weekend is finally ending. Feeling abit sian but Im just glad that everything's back to normal again. Though it's back to the life that we all don't wanna face as NSFs, we still have to face it. Lol I dont wanna to whine or complain or bitch about stuff because all I know is that I have an "everyone-thinks-it's-lepak" admin job and yeap, just 6 more months to liberty! So I guess I just gotta hang in there awhile more.

Im a person who needs timeouts from time to time ykow? That's why I picked up running. Running can either take my mind off stuff or give me the time required to reflect and stuff like that. But the problem now, running is also getting abit boring for me. I wanna buy a road bike soon so that I could at least have a choice on what to do for a timeout. Seriously speaking, Im really tired. Tired of facing reality, tired of doing the same thing over and over again. And this, Im referring to so many so many stuff in my life now. I dont know what I can do to make things better or I am the one doing things the wrong way, either way, no one is giving me any advice and I wont be listening to any. 

Wont it be great to just disappear from the this world for a day or something? Then go around seeing how things are running without your existence? I thought of that before but then a part of me tells me that "dude, you arent that important to anyone, your disappearance isnt a big deal yknow?" Low self-esteem. I have that. Oh well, back to reality. Time to pack and rest for tmr. It's just another week of shit. Lets go.