'Cause I will never make it

Time passes and friends come and go. Throughout my secondary school, JC and now NS, i know that friends... are just friends. Yes you might categorise them and the effort you put in to maintain the friendship with them depends on the category they are in. However your categorization of them will be different from theirs of you. This is what affects me the most. When you prioritise someone but that someone doesnt give a shit. Then again maybe someone else out there prioritises you but you too dont give a shit. I miss my friends, i miss having fun with them, i miss all the shit that we did together. But one has gotta move on right? No point looking back and regretting about things you dint managed to do. Im alrdy at the end of my 4th hurdle of my life. I guess i still have a couple of months more to prep myself for the 5th hurdle. 

Sidetracking, you know how irritating it feels when you know that you dont mean anything to anyone at all? When people dont fucking listen to what you say and still expect you to understand how they feel? So what if you are wearing a rank higher than me? So what if you are older than me? So what if you are my family? It doesnt matter who you are because i work by one simple principle: Treat me well and i will treat you well, if not i will let you know what is hell. I had enough of taking in people's shit because im always the useless and pathetic guy who cant make anything out of everything. Okay done whining bye.