Transition isnt that hard

Its been a month since i have done a proper post so here it is. After ORD-ing, life pretty much becomes very dull and not happening at all. Yes i do get alot of free time on hand now but i realised i dont really have much to do. Went to china a few weeks back and yeah it was definitely fun there and i bought a couple of things. Nonetheless things are pretty much the same when i come back. Eat play sleep. I need a job soon and needlessly to say, get my body clock back to waking up early. I dont really know what my brain wants from me but i have been getting nightmares recently. And they have been revolving the one fear i have in reality: to go off without saying goodbye. Not that im not afraid of death but honestly im scared to die suddenly without saying a goodbye speech or something. 

Or maybe i have to playing too much zombie games lately such that i get so obsessed with killing until i get killed myself in my dreams lol. Be it L4D on the com or Dead Trigger on the phone, its about survival of the fittest yknow. Its like who can play the longest rather than who can survive the longest. Lol. But when i start these zombie games means that i havent been thinking straight lately. Things are running through my mind such that i have to go kill zombies over and over again to distract myself. I hate doing that cos at the end of the day, you realised that yes, you have successfully distracted yourself, but hey, you lost the whole day too.

Oh sidetracking, i think that its the time of the year again where you do all your reflections on what have you done in this year and how you are gonna improve in the next year. Well well, at least in this year i have picked up the courage to do certain things so that i wont die regretting not doing them. Maybe it seems like a simple action or nothing at all to the other party but it really means alot to me. So thank you thank you. Oh oh and everyone seems to be getting together with their other halves! Well im happy to stay by my own half and that i wish that you all will too. Love is not about being there for your half all the time, or buying presents at every anniversary, bla bla bla. I think love is seeing that your other half is happy, you will be happy. No matter whether you are there anot, it doesnt matter. As long as he/she is happy you will be. The rest that are single, suck it up single is good too. LOL